No Day But Today

I would maybe dance for it? Hahaha! I’m not sure. I like klondike bars, but not enough to do anything amazing. :)

I would love to take initiative. I’m never really brave enough to tell people I am interested in that I am interested in them. I’d love to be able to be the one to kiss first.

I would also love to have the nerve to go streaking. Just because. :)

The day that Zac and I hung out for most of the day. We hung out, went to the movies, then said we could chill at his house out in LA. So, we did, and none of his roommates were in, so it was just the two of us. We bought orange juice and mixed gin in, and left it in the freezer. The liquor kept it from freezing, and it was really good (it’s one of my favorite drinks, to this day). We danced, we watched movies, and then danced some more. Finally, at about 1am, he asked if I wanted to sleep out in the living room on the futon, or if I didn’t think it was awkward to sleep in the same bed. I had known him for years, so I said it wouldn’t be awkward. We went into his room, and we talked for hours. He showed me notes and letters I had written him in middle school that he still had. It was really touching to me. We didn’t really fall asleep until it was getting light. We play this game were we guess the time and see how close we are. Throughout the night, he and I talked about many different things. And we fell asleep in each other’s arms. I can’t begin to describe how I wanted to cry. It was so amazing, and it was one of the best days of my life. Next day, we woke up super early, then ate, then went back to sleep, then woke up for a pool party. Amazing.

Hello, anon!

3) I am a jealous person. I try not to be, but I’m honestly a very jealous person. I’ll hide it well, and I don’t act on it. My jealousy often ends up hurting me more than anyone else involved. :P

11) Now, the logic in me says of course I can be in a relationship for 6 months. But, my pessimistic self says “Psh. Have you ever done that?”

12) Not anymore. I was mad at someone for a long time. But I haven’t heard from him, and I’m taking that to mean that I’m no longer in his life or important to him. And he is no longer allowed in mine.

25) I have had three people of the opposite sex tell me they love me. Two of them were my best friends, and I no longer matter to them. The third was an ex. I believe that he meant it at the time and in the moment, but I couldn’t say it back.

38) The last time I was EXTREMELY disappointed was when I was at the doctor’s and I realized that medical environments would start to be a big part of my life again, and it just made me want to cry.

39) Jasmine, Jazz, Sexy.

44) I have had my heart broken. And it always takes a long time to heal. It leaves scars. But I’m grateful for it.

45) I don’t think long distance relationships can work. Maybe, after you’ve been together for awhile, and then you have to be separate for a few years, you could make it work. But if you start out long distance, I think the relationship is doomed to fail.

47) I always find it hard to tell someone that I like them. Any time I try, it’s like standing on the edge of a cliff, and I hear a rushing in my ears, and the anticipation makes me anxious. Instead of leaping forward, I take a step back into safety. I’m a pansy.

5) I don’t always chew on my straws. But I do play with them. I stir my drink obnoxiously.

10) I am a very heavy sleeper. “Did you feel that earthquake last night?” No, I didn’t. I feel as if you are exaggerating.

17) Will I get married? I hope so. If I have the option, I definitely will.

28) I can be too forgiving. It’s a bad thing. It just means people can take advantage of me, and it’s okay because I forgive them.

32) Vitamins and water were the last things to be in my mouth.

36) Actually, I took a picture with Summer at her Rocky Horror Party. We are adorable!

40) I am not currently in a relationship. I haven’t been in one in a long time, and it makes me a little insecure. Because I’m lame. Haha!

Thanks for the questions, anon.

I’m in an answering mood, so ask me anything?